We are obviously still adapting to our new situation and attempting to get them both on as much of a routine schedule as possible in order to preserve our sanity. Logan is our big eater and usually takes down 5-6 ozs. of formula every 4-5 hours while Landon has a much weaker sucking reflex and can only manage 3 ½-4 ozs. every 3-4 hours or so. They are both gaining weight at a healthy rate, with both of them coming in at 7 ½ pounds at their last pediatrician’s appointment a week ago!! They have certainly developed drastically different temperaments since coming home. Whereas Logan was always relaxed and easy-going in the NICU and Landon was extremely fussy and high maintenance, it now appears the roles have reversed. Many of the nurses in the NICU advised us that babies with neurological problems, such as Logan’s, are usually cranky and extremely irritable and this has become clearly evident in the past few weeks. He is such a gentle and sweet soul but especially sensitive at the same time - he often cries when being handled and is very easily over stimulated. Some nights he will grunt and cry and refuse to go to bed unless I pick him up, hold him and rock him to sleep. Of course I try to put him back down and he wakes up immediately and begins crying again! Needless to say, it leads to some extremely long nights (not that I mind, I just adore that he feels better when I hold him). In comparison to Logan, everything just seems so easy with Landon. He cries only when he’s hungry, sleeps great and is now completely free of all monitors and wires so he’s totally portable!! I just love being able to pick him up and carry him whenever and wherever I choose around the house. It astounds me how these little things mean so much to us that we probably would have taken for granted if not for our situation.
When our boys were born they had maybe a 50% chance of survival. They had so many things going against them, first and foremost being that they were Caucasian, male, multiple gestation babies, who statistically do the worse in terms of mortality rates. And not only did they both survive, but they are thriving. What else can I say - these babies really do break all of the rules. And I’m not just referring to my miracle boys, but any premature baby. They may have been brought into the world early against their will but it was their will alone, and nothing else, that has kept them here to fight through another day.