Pic #6 below is Logan on CPAP (sucking on his pacifier);
Pic #7 below is our first official family photo
Not be outdone, even though he's fighting the meningitis, his little brother Landon shocked Mommy and Daddy today by coming off the CPAP and onto the high flow nasal cannula!! It just blew me away to see him laying in his isolette with nothing on his handsome little face except the plastic tubes in his nose...I just couldn't stop staring at him!! He's doing remarkably well - he's on 21% oxygen, desatting very rarely (and when he does it's only into the low 80's) and he's only having bradys once every few hours. He has done a complete about-face since Sunday, it's hard to believe that he's still so sick.
Finally, Saturday was a particularly special day for us as not only did Landon and Logan get to spend some quality time together for the first time since their birth but Mommy & Daddy each got to hold both of them at the same time!! It was such a perfect day, the most content I've been in a long time. It was so incredibly sweet to see them laying next to one another in the same isolette, although I wondered (and worried of course) whether they were really aware or "remembered" who the other one was or if they were complete strangers to each other. Landon was out like a light and decided to drape himself all over his brother as he slept, while Logan just laid on his back with his eyes wide open looking around wondering why this other little guy had invaded his bed, it was so precious!! I was allowed to hold them together for a few hours and they both did so well with barely any desats and no bradys; it was so overwhelmingly peaceful and healing, it truly was incredible. I finally felt like a mother.
Last week it snowed for the first time this year (ok, it was just a light dusting) and I took a few pictures from our bedroom window. I'm not sure why, I guess because it was technically the boys' first snow, even though they can't see or enjoy it yet, and I was suddenly overcome with this feeling that everything was going to be ok and work out as God intended. I wanted to save that moment. If any good has come from this nightmare, it's that every little thing just seems magnified to me now, everything exists on a much grander scale and I appreciate it all so much more - God, my family, my friends. I could never get through this, nor could our boys, if not for all of them in my life. It's just a shame I needed something this heartwrenching to help put things in perspective for me.BELOW IS A VIDEO OF THE BOYS MEETING ONE ANOTHER AGAIN FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE THEIR BIRTH!!